Sunday 21 June 2015

I Don't Even Know What This Is About

I feel heavy. In my chest. In my heart.

You know the kind of feeling that weighs you down. Gets your heart beating hard. The spasmatic (and that’s a word) throbbing of sorts within the chest. Unsure, anxious, not knowing what you suddenly feel so desperate about.

Definitely not the first time. But I hadn’t felt this way in a long time.

Sometimes, I think I know what I want. I think I know how I feel. Like it’s in my power to feel happy or sad. And I choose to be happy.

And then moments like these, make me wonder if that’s the real me? Is that the real feeling I am feeling? Or is it something I CHOOSE to feel as.

Oh Jesus, this is puzzling.

It’s no easy deal being your own self. Being you. Being ME.

Yes, you are looking at someone who thinks he knows what he wants from life. But do I really?

There’s this YOU. That you want to be. And there’s this, another you, who you actually are. And then there’s this constant conflict between these two YOU. Trying to rise above each other.

And you often go with who you want to be. Leaving the actual you neglected, unattended, disposed off to some dark dungeons in your mind. Free to wander aimlessly and heap up the already unacknowledged YOU. Until it finally decides to break free from the darkness and see light of the day.

I am feeling that moment right now. The moment of actual ME.

But I’m just not yet ready to perceive the actual ME. What scares me; what depresses me; what angers me; what hurts me; what drives me crazy; and what kills me just a little more (knowingly or unknowingly).

It’s as much frightening as relieving to come to terms with your actual self. The anger that’s been undercurrent, the pain that's been thriving deep in, the sadness that’s been slithering quietly beneath you.

As much as you’d love to have 365 sunny days, we can’t ignore the rains. Can we now?

I haven’t cried in years. I feel like I want to. Have I been neglecting what’s being bottled up for years now?

Not crying out can do more harm than good. I’m trying my best to cry but it’s not happening. It feels stuck. Maybe that’s why it’s heavy in the chest.

Cry. Yeah sure it will make you look weak in your eyes, make you reflect emotional through your rationality looking glass. But at least it’ll ease the pain. Lighten up a bit. And perhaps wash away the cosmetics of ASSUMED YOU.

It will take deeper digging into me to help free the crying flow.

The present needs as much YOU as your past. So remember the past but also don’t forget the present.

In the constant race of I’d-Like-To-Be there’s also the I-Am-The-Me pacing sideways with you. And both will have to run side-by-side.

The surface is all shiny and gold. One scrape and you’ll start to uncover a near-you.

Monday 8 June 2015

Aromatherapy with Ekam!


It’s been talked about, written about a gazillion times that even “stress” would now be feeling all stressed up listening to about own self.

Yet, we all do very little to drive away or at least assuage those intensified stress levels. Eventually, it will erupt into blazing volcanic consequences on your health soon enough. Now don’t they say prevention is better than cure?

Just when I was wondering what easy-to-do, at-home remedies I could be partaking in, I figured out much like the other sensory receipts, scents have the power to induce emotional turbulence.

Great fragrances can take you mind miles away to a dreamland, and the bad scents can invoke feelings of disgust, depression and even anger. So much of power bestowed within.

Aromatherapy it was.


I knew this would help me the best.

Why?

Because it calls for least of my participation! Working as a copywriter does get mentally hectic. Multiple brands, multiple concepts, multiple stories at once to be woven - it sure as hell gets edgy. And I guessed a little lingering fragrance can do me no harm instead.

Home or office, I knew these aromatic relievers cold be mounted anywhere, anytime. And plus, aromatherapy has no side-effects noted of.

So lighting scented candles perfectly seemed to suit my stress busting mission.

I chose Rose & Sandalwood and Cool Water fragrances particularly from EkamOnline.

Rose & Sandalwood

When you think of rose, feelings of love, companionship and togetherness fill your heart and mind. Isn’t LOVE now the best remedy to kill stress in life? Sure being with your paramour helps you forget everything, even the worries and botheration. I certainly needn’t elaborate on that.

The mood enhancing qualities of a rose candle can much do the same. It can incite feelings, memories, etc. of togetherness, companionship to help release the feel-good hormones. And invariably reduce the stress levels.

Coupled with sandalwood the effect is only doubled. Rose and sandalwood best help fighting stress, fatigue, anger, anxiety, grief, etc.


Cool Water

Made quite famous by Davidoff, Cool Water is a fragrance that I personally vouch by. Well I chose this scent not just because it’s one of my favourites, but because the essence of Cool Water is extremely invigorating. The fragrance beautifully evokes the scene of the white sands and cool breezes blowing past you with the fresh scent of ocean blue waters, in your mind.

It’s a contemporary fragrance, quite suitable for a daytime lighting whenever you need a fresh outlook.

If you’d like to buy the same scented pillar candles or just browse through the other suitable collection, do visit the site Ekam Online.

Ekam - a fabulous name - meaning supreme oneness or singularity in Sanskrit. Isn’t that a marvellous name to have?
More at the e-store to be found
  • Pillar candles
  • Tea-Lights
  • Votive Candles
  • Designer Candles
  • Lampshade Candles

    with free samplers available as well.
Ekam Online also has varieties in flameless fragrances - diffusers, sprays and fragrant oils, as well as other exciting gifting options. Do check out http://www.ekamonline.com/ for more information.

Let’s get our mind, body, and essentially our SPACE, detoxified!